Things that I have found that are really dragging me down are... Since the release from rehab. I have had MORE than my share of responsibility thrown on my shoulders.. I can barely take care of myself, and have had no time to heal or adjust to wounds inflicted.. People state that God will only give you as much BLAHBLAH......... PLEASE give me break God..... I feel weak.. Things are going out of control .. And all I want to do is.............. Hide.
As far as responsibility goes.. I have tried and tried, and it seems that people are not even giving me a chance to learn... It seems that since my return to society I am to be responsible for YOU and EVERYBODY else... How can you expect this from me when I never even had a fair shot of being able to take care of myself sober.. Now I am responsible for everyone else? ..I have came to the conclusion and desicion that things are changing, and they are going to change quickly....... ONE- I am no longer responsible for anybody but myself.. If people get in the way of that..Let them be cast aside... TWO- I need to take more time to do things for and with myself..Nobody is going to go finish my testing at the college but me... THREE- It is not my fault or responsibility that somebody else fucked up their life, and have tried to latch onto mine and drain all good things from my existence...................... I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR ANYBODY BUT ME
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